A life update....I will be 28 in about 36 hours!!! (give or take a few hours)

So my 28th birthday is on 02/02/2010 and I will be 28 years old.................................

Time goes by really fast.........!! If I think back the past 10 years, part of me doesn't think I have accomplished much..but with other things I think I have grown...............I've taken a few college classes here and there without much focus or desire, I've been with Anthem Blue Cross and Blue Shield for 4 years, lots of retail before that.......I've kind of been a gypsy moving from place to place (all around Reno) ......now I have lived by myself for about 9 months, my lease is up in May......but that will probably turn into another year as well.

I do like living by myself, there are the "pros/cons" but sometimes I wish I lived with somebody, sometimes it gets too quiet living by myself...........well except for the neighbors down stairs that are constantly "in and out" of their apartment, slamming the doors, fighting...stupid drama!!!!

I've been going to a group now for about a month to help with my overeating. Sometimes I feel I'm ok enough to not go anymore, that I have it "figured out", but I surprise myself everytime I go, I'm reminded as to why I cannot quit this.................I have quit so many things in my life, but now my health and my future depends on this..........some people may think that I just need to put down the fork or eat smaller portions.......it isn't like that. I don't have the strength sometimes, or I'll act like I have it figured out, but behind closed doors or in my alone time about in town is when I break down and binge..............and then beat myself up (not physically)........I know what I need to do to loose the weight and get control of this addiction.........

However, I feel I really am starting to figure this out, that I'm starting to recover, I just know in my heart of hearts I need to give it to God....I feel I'm in that place now where I can........I've tried to "control" and "take care of by myself" this situation that is not in my control......I'm slowly starting to release it to God.......Jesus took that cross for me.....I thank God for this revelation!!! I am much more at peace...even though I still eat the crap.......I'm not so "crazy" anymore - if that is a good word to use..............spiritually my heart is getting stronger and I'm healing....I feel this every day and it helps me keep my faith.............

I've been reading Ephesians 6:10-20 It talks about the Armor of God.........this has helped too and I KNOW that by doing so has helped my Holy Spirit get stronger.......By giving into God, His armor is helping to"extinguish all the flaming arrows of the Evil one"......I know in my heart that I need to keep reading this...........I need to pray without ceasing....thank God for another day, for a new year of life that He has blessed me with...............I know now that I am on that path that God designed for me............

God bless!!

~ Liz