A couple of prayers I wrote.

Okey dokey!

So for the longest time, I found it extremely difficult to pray to God without feeling like a complete fool, and then when I get those negative feelings (from the Devil, of course) I just don't pray: unless I am completely desperate. About November 2008 time frame I decided that I need to write out my feelings more (mainly in personal journals). God has actually given me the words to type up and they have turned into a few prayers. Due to repeating these prayers, I have felt the biggest spiritual change that I have had since originally going back to God for help a few years ago. What an amazing experience it has been. I look back on them, especially the first one from November and what I prayed for has come to pass.....which is totally awsome!! Not everybody will know where I am coming from, but those who have had God experiences like me. To actually put your complete trust in God can be so hard at first since we are messed up humans...lol...but once you do and actually feel and notice a change is remarkable! Who would ever want to become almost dead of thirst again when they have been able to quench the longing need of the spirit of God? I want MORE of God!!

So I decided to take these prayers out of my personal journal and share them with who ever would like to read them. I hope it helps!

MY PRAYERS

11/02/08

God this world doesn't see you the way I see you. They make a mockery of You and Your Word. They laugh at You, God. But I will be one to stand by You because I see the truth, my body is filled with your heavenly spirit. I pray Lord that you break this oppression the Enemy has placed on my heart and in my head. By the blood of your son Jesus, BREAK this bondage the Devil has placed around me for so many years. Allow these chains to fall off because the Enemy and his followers are below me! Let THEM burn for eternity in the Hell they created for themselves! For YOU God have created me for a purpose! I will follow YOU God and do what you have willed me to do! I want to walk down the path you chose for me. I want to live in Eternity with you and your saints. I am done living a mediocre life. I am done being depressed not knowing what to live for. I am DONE being controlled by this world. I want to be in the world not part of the world. I want to help those who don't know you. I want to lead them to your heavenly body. I thank you for forgiving my sins and being there when I call out to you. I'm tired of being tired, I'm tired of being lost. I need to make You first. I pray, Lord that you give me a heart of contentment, and patience. You told me that you have a man for me but I need to make Jesus first. I need to be your bride. I thank you for being there for me, even in my blind foolishness. You promised me salvation; You will never hurt me the way the world has. You will never leave me.PSALM 51:10...CREATE IN ME A PURE HEART, OH GOD, AND RENEW A STEADFAST SPIRIT IN ME! - AMEN


12/05/08

Let it begin! Oh God, creator of all heavenly things, the king of my heart. I am captivated by your love and grace, I submit to your will. Forgive me of my past transgressions and heal my wounded heart as I walk in the direction that you have laid out before me. For Your kingdom is great and your mercy triumphs over all. So let it begin, my life, the one you have created for me as I let my worldly selfish life stay behind me in the past. – AMEN.