I don't understand some men.....and this game called "Dating"

Ok, so I have the wonderful "luck" of meeting guys that seem to show interest in me for a short period of time but then decide that they just want to be "friends" Hey, I'm cool with having guys as friends, but I CAN'T stand it when they constantly wine and moan and groan to me about why they are single.......I don't mind being there for my friends when they want to vent, but I guess what I don't like is listening to the same crap...over and over and over!!!!! I try so hard to be patient, give them support...while thinking, "Hello?! What about me? I'm single too!!" **wink wink, nudge nudge** Then, when those guys finally meet a woman and get into the relationship part,......then I don't hear from them again...or months down the road when they are either single again or bored. As if I was just thrown aside and that I didn't matter to them anymore because they found somebody else.

I completly understand that when a person is in a relationship things change; he may feel uncomfortable talking to another woman ......even though she is just a friend. Whatever. Some guys are kinda wierd like that, or the girl that they are dating has trust issues.

Latley I have been thinking, not long after my most recent man friend got a girlfriend........I have been so patient allowing God to work in my life so I can be a stronger woman. I have also been at peace even though I'm in a transitional period in life at the current moment. I am sticking to a church and trying to make more friends; trying to branch out more.........I could try a little harder with getting more hobbies :o) ..... but the 1 thing I can say that I really proud of myself is that I am not trying to bitch about is being single........pondering endlessly as to why I haven't met a good man who wants to be with me...I am really honestly trying to let God take care of things.........

I just find it hard bare when I constantly try to be the "supporter" the "friend" trying to help my "friends" with their romantic frusterations.........they bitch, moan, groan, DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA!! Yet not long after the hours of "MY TIME" they find somebody and I don't hear from them unless it is convienient for them....................and I am left to ponder......"Wow God, did ya forget about me? I'm the patient one here! Why haven't I met the guy You want me to be with? Why am I still single? I've been putting You first!!!! WHY???"

I'm not jealous of my girl friends who get into relationships and get married.....but I just feel like why can't I have that? Recently, I found myself starting to get bitter.......I can't be bitter.....But here is a funny little tidbit......When I was 20 I told myself, "If I'm not married by the time I'm 30 or at least in commited dating relationship heading towards marriage, I'm becoming a nun" HAHAHA! Well, I'm now 27 and as single as I can get..........so, if by the time I'm 30 (in 3 years) and still very single, I just may consider becoming a Catholic Nun.....HAHAHA!!!

I can't be bitter.....I can't be angry......I can't allow those men to suck the life out of me...(or maybe those type of people in general)....but I'm so TIRED of being the 3rd wheel....the other girl who is just a "friend" Why is God taking so long with me? Does He believe I can handle this better than others? I don't know! I can't do dating websites, or matchmakers....it makes me shudder that I have to pay others to set me up on dates or to just meet guys. Sure I'm not the bombshell beauty like other women are, I have some qualities that are decent, but I can say that most guys out there looking for 1 type of girl....sometimes I feel as if I'm constantly looked over.........All I want is the guy God promised me....is that too damn much to ask for?

Ok, I'm done venting for now.